ARB TV-nin \u201cRezonans\u201d proqram\u0131nda bu d\u0259f\u0259 1970-ci il t\u0259v\u0259ll\u00fcdl\u00fc, Bak\u0131n\u0131n \u201cKubinka\u201d m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259sind\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259n S\u0259m\u0259d S\u0259m\u0259dov \u00f6z h\u0259yat hekay\u0259sini dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b.<\/p>\n
S\u0259m\u0259d S\u0259m\u0259dov \u2013 M\u0259hkum (C\u0259zas\u0131 14 il( \u00fcmumi 24 il)): Atam kabab\u00e7\u0131 olub, qohumlar\u0131m da tan\u0131nan kabab\u00e7\u0131lar olub. M\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259clisl\u0259r\u0259 kabab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 gedirdim, atama k\u00f6m\u0259k edirdim. Anam is\u0259 m\u0259\u015fhur xal\u00e7a\u00e7\u0131 olub. Onun \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri Nizami muzeyind\u0259 d\u0259 n\u00fcmayi\u015f olunur. U\u015faq vaxtlar\u0131mdan h\u0259rbi\u00e7i olmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 7-ci sinifd\u0259 oxuyanda s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rimi h\u0259rbi m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 verdim. Lakin g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 z\u0259iflik oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259rb\u00e7i olmaq arzum \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 qald\u0131.<\/p>\n
Birinci cinay\u0259timi yeniyetm\u0259 ya\u015flar\u0131mda t\u00f6r\u0259tmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00d6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm \u015f\u0259xs bac\u0131m\u0131n sinif yolda\u015f\u0131 idi. G\u0259nclik ill\u0259rim idi, getdim bac\u0131mgilin m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259. \u018fm\u0259k t\u0259limi d\u0259rsi idi. \u00c7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m o\u011flan\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131m bay\u0131ra, vurdum. Amma \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 vurmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. M\u0259xsusi olaraq da \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Sad\u0259c\u0259 cavanl\u0131q idi, vurdum, \u00f6ld\u00fc. Azya\u015fl\u0131 oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 10 il h\u0259bs c\u0259zas\u0131 verdil\u0259r. O bar\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
H\u0259bsd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra da \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259dim, ba\u015flad\u0131m cavanl\u0131q etm\u0259y\u0259. Atam\u0131n, anam\u0131n arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 insan ola bilm\u0259dim, \u00f6zba\u015f\u0131na oldum, \u00f6z yolumu se\u00e7dim. M\u0259n onsuz da valideynl\u0259rimin arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi ya\u015faya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim, onsuz da bel\u0259 ya\u015fayacaqd\u0131m. Bird\u0259n bir\u0259 iki adam olmaq olmur, m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm oldum. O vaxtlar t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyim \u0259m\u0259ld\u0259n pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q \u00e7\u0259kmirdim. Amma indi \u00e7ox pe\u015fmanam.<\/p>\n
Azadl\u0131qda olanda g\u00f6y\u0259rti sat\u0131rd\u0131m, Pir\u015fa\u011f\u0131da qoyun otar\u0131rd\u0131m. S\u00fcd m\u0259hsullar\u0131 satm\u0131\u015fam, b\u0131\u00e7aq itil\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m amma \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bir s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259, pe\u015f\u0259d\u0259 tapa bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
\u0130kinci cinay\u0259tim ba\u011fda oldu. Qon\u015fular\u0131mla, yax\u0131n u\u015faqlarla y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b getdik ba\u011fa. Al\u0131\u015f-veri\u015f etdik g\u0259ldik ba\u011fa yeyib-i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259. Bir n\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 g\u0259ldi m\u0259clisimiz\u0259. G\u0259l\u0259n adam ba\u015fqa bir yerd\u0259 d\u0259 yeyib-i\u00e7ib g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u0130\u00e7kili idi dey\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir n\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259si yarand\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 bunu \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b apard\u0131m ki, yola salam. \u0130\u00e7kili idi, getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi, s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f s\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc. He\u00e7 s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmad\u0131m, bildim ki, i\u00e7kilidi. Dedim eybi yox, sabah ay\u0131lar, s\u00f6hb\u0259t eliy\u0259rik. Bird\u0259n bu m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0131\u00e7aq \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. H\u0259r \u015fey bir anda ba\u015f verdi. Bir d\u0259 ay\u0131ld\u0131m ki, qonaqlar m\u0259ni onun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n qald\u0131r\u0131rlar. Y\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m onu yer\u0259.<\/p>\n
Onu b\u0131\u00e7aqla a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 nahiy\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n vurmu\u015fdum. S\u0259ndem\u0259 b\u0131\u00e7aqlardan biri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb b\u00f6yr\u0259yinin damar\u0131na. O da bunu hiss etm\u0259yib, qa\u00e7\u0131b gizl\u0259ndi, axtard\u0131q biz\u0259 cavab verm\u0259di, tapa bilm\u0259dik onu. Biz d\u0259 el\u0259 bildik ki, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedib, da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. 3-4 g\u00fcn sonra m\u0259lum oldu ki, adam qanaxmadan \u00f6l\u00fcb. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 bir az g\u0259zdim, f\u0131rland\u0131m, g\u0259ldim t\u0259slim oldum. Birinci cinay\u0259timd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm t\u0259slim olmu\u015fdum, ikincid\u0259 d\u0259. Qa\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 yoxdur\u201d.<\/p>\n