N\u0259rgiz deyir ki, h\u0259yat\u0131nda b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259db\u0259xtlikl\u0259r qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n onu zorla \u00f6z dostuna \u0259r\u0259 verm\u0259si il\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n
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\u201cAil\u0259mizd\u0259 sevgi hiss etm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, anamgil m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 pis olmay\u0131b. Qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n dostu m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcb, b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdi. M\u0259niml\u0259 ail\u0259 qurmaq ist\u0259diyini deyib. Qarda\u015f\u0131m da dostuna yox dem\u0259yib, anama dedi ki, s\u00f6z verdim, q\u0131z\u0131 ver\u0259c\u0259m getsin. He\u00e7 m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fmad\u0131 ki, ist\u0259yir\u0259m, ya yox. Evd\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r v\u0259 m\u0259ni 19 ya\u015f\u0131mda \u0259r\u0259 verdil\u0259r. Bir il yeddi ay onunla evli qald\u0131q. O\u011flan\u0131n pis v\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259ri var idi. \u0130\u00e7irdi, \u00e7\u0259kirdi, narkotik istifad\u0259 edirdi. M\u0259ni d\u00f6ym\u00fcrd\u00fc, amma h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t sal\u0131rd\u0131\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00d6vlad\u0131m olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdim, ana olma\u011f\u0131ma bel\u0259 icaz\u0259 verm\u0259dil\u0259r\u201d<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n H\u0259yatda \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusunun xo\u015fb\u0259xt ail\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 \u00f6vlada sahibl\u0259nm\u0259k oldu\u011funu dey\u0259n N\u0259rgiz\u00a0bundan da m\u0259hrum edildiyini deyir:<\/p>\n \u201cQay\u0131nanam \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131z olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mirdi. M\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u201c\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259lmir, g\u00fcnahs\u0131z k\u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259lsin. M\u0259nim o\u011flumdan s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259r olmad\u0131, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131na da ata olmayacaq\u201d deyirdi. H\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259, h\u00f6rm\u0259tsizlikl\u0259r\u0259 dayana bilm\u0259dim, ayr\u0131l\u0131b evimiz\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. Ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda qay\u0131nanam m\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, ail\u0259n s\u0259ni b\u0259db\u0259xt el\u0259di, m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u0259limd\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u0259lmir. \u201cAllah yolunu a\u00e7\u0131q el\u0259sin\u201d deyib, yola sald\u0131. M\u0259n ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda is\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n k\u0259sildi. M\u0259n\u0259 \u201cs\u0259n niy\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131n? S\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259n camaat i\u00e7in\u0259 nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam?\u201d deyirdi. Evd\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa imkan vermirdi\u201d.<\/p>\n N\u0259rgiz dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca bir q\u0259d\u0259r narahat oldu\u011funu hiss edirdim. Sanki psixoloji probleml\u0259ri var idi. Bilmir\u0259m, bu, ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sirind\u0259ndi, yoxsa el\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r m\u0259hz s\u0259hh\u0259tind\u0259ki probleml\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 idi?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n N\u0259rgiz deyir ki, anas\u0131 qarda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 bacara bilm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn 27 ya\u015f\u0131nda onu 50 ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015fiy\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 verib:<\/p>\n \u201cYeddi il s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n sonra anam m\u0259ni \u0259r\u0259 verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn adam axtarma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. N\u0259hay\u0259t d\u00f6rd o\u011flu, bir q\u0131z\u0131 olan 50 ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015fi tapd\u0131lar. M\u0259ni onunla molla k\u0259bini il\u0259 evl\u0259ndirdil\u0259r. Birinci qorxurdum, sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, m\u0259n\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131r. Onun\u00a0sad\u0259c\u0259 yem\u0259yini ver\u0259c\u0259k, pal-paltar\u0131n\u0131 yuyacaq bir n\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 ona evd\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259klik edirdim. \u0130ki il \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l ya\u015fad\u0131q. Evd\u0259n k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa qoymazd\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259zdi. O\u011flunun h\u0259bsd\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilirdim, amma m\u0259nim ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xtliyim\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131ma bel\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259zdim. O\u011flu h\u0259bsxanadan \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra g\u0259lib m\u0259ni evd\u0259n qovdu. M\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, s\u0259n atam\u0131n var-d\u00f6vl\u0259tind\u0259n pay g\u00fcd\u00fcrs\u0259n, amma \u0259lini \u00fcz. Atas\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dan\u0131\u015fsa da, yola g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259di. M\u0259cbur olub, m\u0259ni evd\u0259n yola sald\u0131. Ged\u0259c\u0259k yerim yox idi. Anam dedi ki, g\u0259lm\u0259, qarda\u015f\u0131n icaz\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. \u00c7ar\u0259sizlikd\u0259n s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011fa \u00fcz tutdum\u201d.<\/p>\n \u201cM\u0259n \u00f6vlada h\u0259sr\u0259t\u0259m, bu balaca is\u0259\u00a0anaya, amma bir g\u00fcn bizi d\u0259 ay\u0131racaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bilir\u0259m\u201d.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n N\u0259rgiz s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaqda anas\u0131z bir u\u015fa\u011fa baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyir:<\/p>\n \u201cBura g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259 bir u\u015fa\u011fa bax\u0131ram. Ne\u00e7\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259dir ki, yan\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lm\u0131ram. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131m olsun ist\u0259dim, olmad\u0131. Anas\u0131 onu nec\u0259 ata bilib, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Bu u\u015fa\u011fa \u00e7ox ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fam. Amma bir g\u00fcn onu da \u0259limd\u0259n alacaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bilir\u0259m. M\u0259nim olmasa da, onu \u00f6z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m kimi sevir\u0259m. Bilmir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 o m\u0259nim kimi ana ist\u0259m\u0259z. \u201c\u00d6vlad \u015firin \u015feydi\u201d deyirl\u0259r. M\u0259nim ail\u0259m m\u0259ni sevm\u0259di, dayaq durmad\u0131. Onun ail\u0259si d\u0259 y\u0259qin onu sevm\u0259yib. M\u0259nim \u00f6vlad\u0131m olsayd\u0131, he\u00e7 vaxt atmazd\u0131m. H\u0259yat \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259 vaxtsa h\u0259yatda m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k biri olacaq?\u201d<\/p>\n T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, N\u0259rgizin bu sual\u0131n\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. H\u0259yatda h\u0259r k\u0259sin bir q\u0259d\u0259ri var. Kimisi \u00f6z, kimisi d\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n se\u00e7iml\u0259rinin qurban\u0131 olur. El\u0259 h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259timiz N\u0259rgiz kimi…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bu d\u00fcnyada x\u0259yal etdiyim he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 sahib ola bilm\u0259dim. B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00f6z s\u0259hvimd\u0259n, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ail\u0259min s\u0259hvind\u0259n… Amma onu bilir\u0259m ki, m\u0259n\u0259 sahib \u00e7\u0131xan olmad\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131m h\u0259yatda olsayd\u0131, yiy\u0259siz qalma\u011f\u0131ma imkan verm\u0259zdi. Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri 34 ya\u015fl\u0131 N\u0259rgiz \u018fliyeva (ad \u015f\u0259rtidir) deyir. Onun s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck, lakin sevgisiz bir ail\u0259d\u0259 do\u011fulub. Ail\u0259d\u0259 yeddi u\u015faq (\u00fc\u00e7 bac\u0131, d\u00f6rd qarda\u015f) olsalar da, h\u0259yat onu ucsuz-bucaqs\u0131z \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259r\u0259 sovurdu\u011funda \u0259lind\u0259n tutan bir n\u0259f\u0259r bel\u0259 tap\u0131lmay\u0131b. Oxu.Az\u00a0yolu s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaqlara d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n daha bir qad\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131nacaql\u0131 h\u0259yat hekay\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edir: N\u0259rgiz deyir ki, h\u0259yat\u0131nda b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259db\u0259xtlikl\u0259r…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":215138,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"categories":[26],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"gutentor_comment":0,"rttpg_featured_image_url":{"full":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n.jpg",620,414,false],"landscape":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n.jpg",620,414,false],"portraits":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n.jpg",620,414,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n-150x150.jpg",150,150,true],"medium":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n-300x200.jpg",300,200,true],"large":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n.jpg",620,414,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n.jpg",620,414,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n.jpg",620,414,false],"post-thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n-240x172.jpg",240,172,true],"advps-thumb-one":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/118778631_344579240013669_6862214970134849438_n.jpg",620,414,false]},"rttpg_author":{"display_name":"V\u00fcsal Rafiqo\u011flu","author_link":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/?author=2"},"rttpg_comment":0,"rttpg_category":"Sosial<\/a>","rttpg_excerpt":"Bu d\u00fcnyada x\u0259yal etdiyim he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 sahib ola bilm\u0259dim. B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00f6z s\u0259hvimd\u0259n, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ail\u0259min s\u0259hvind\u0259n… Amma onu bilir\u0259m ki, m\u0259n\u0259 sahib \u00e7\u0131xan olmad\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131m h\u0259yatda olsayd\u0131, yiy\u0259siz qalma\u011f\u0131ma imkan verm\u0259zdi. Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri 34 ya\u015fl\u0131 N\u0259rgiz \u018fliyeva (ad \u015f\u0259rtidir) deyir. Onun s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck, lakin sevgisiz bir ail\u0259d\u0259 do\u011fulub. Ail\u0259d\u0259 yeddi…","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/215137"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=215137"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/215137\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/215138"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=215137"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=215137"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=215137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}<\/p>\n
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