– Qocal\u0131qd\u0131r da. Qula\u011f\u0131m a\u011f\u0131r e\u015fidir, g\u00f6z\u00fcm z\u0259if g\u00f6r\u00fcr, ayaqlar\u0131m s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxm\u0131r. Ancaq bel\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131yan yerim yoxdur. Yax\u015f\u0131yam.<\/p>\n
– N\u0259s\u0259 yaz\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Bu yax\u0131nlarda \u201cSabaha ismar\u0131c\u201d adl\u0131 bir \u0259s\u0259r yazm\u0131\u015fam. Onu da dikt\u0259 il\u0259 yazd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam. G\u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6rm\u00fcr h\u0259rfl\u0259ri. Dikt\u0259 il\u0259 yazd\u0131rmaq da \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir.<\/p>\n – Laqeydlik sizi incitmir?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, incidir. M\u0259nim bu q\u0259d\u0259r xidm\u0259tl\u0259rim var, ax\u0131. Alt\u0131 roman\u0131m, \u015feirl\u0259rim, d\u00f6rd povestim, ne\u00e7\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259m var.<\/p>\n – T\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259l\u0259rinizd\u0259n biri d\u0259 Rasputinin \u201cMariyaya pul laz\u0131md\u0131r\u201d \u0259s\u0259ridir. Bu g\u00fcn Vidadi Babanl\u0131ya pul laz\u0131md\u0131rm\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, pis dolanm\u0131ram. Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fc al\u0131ram.\u00a0O t\u0259qa\u00fcd m\u0259ni doland\u0131r\u0131r. Amma m\u0259nim el\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rim olub ki, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k alma\u011fa bel\u0259 pul tapmam\u0131\u015fam. O vaxt \u201cVicdan susanda\u201d \u0259s\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni partiyadan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131lar. D\u00f6rd il m\u0259ni i\u015fsiz qoydular. \u018fs\u0259r Moskvada \u00e7ap olunandan sonra m\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kdil\u0259r. Roman 1979-1980 il iki d\u0259f\u0259 ard-arda\u00a0100 min tirajla \u00e7ap olunub. Az\u0259rbaycan dilind\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 n\u0259\u015fr edilib. Bu, h\u0259r yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131ya qism\u0259t olan xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik deyil. Amma o roman \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tl\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r xeyli \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r d\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. O \u0259s\u0259r \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259ni tuturdular. Roman\u0131 Sovet h\u00f6kum\u0259ti \u0259leyhin\u0259 yaz\u0131lan \u0259s\u0259r kimi qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirirdil\u0259r. O vaxt Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin s\u0259dri Mirz\u0259 \u0130brahimov m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259mi partiya iclas\u0131na qoyub israr edirdi ki, m\u0259ni partiyadan \u00e7\u0131xars\u0131nlar.<\/p>\n – Mirz\u0259 \u0130brahimovun siz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 n\u0259s\u0259 q\u0259r\u0259zi vard\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Vard\u0131. Bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r Mirz\u0259 il\u0259 bizim aram\u0131z\u0131 vurmu\u015fdular. C\u0259lal M\u0259mm\u0259dov ad\u0131nda bir adam vard\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan jurnal\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f redaktoru idi. O bizim aram\u0131z\u0131 vurmu\u015fdu. Dem\u0259li, o vaxt biz jurnalda \u00e7ap olunacaq \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rin siyah\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 iki ay \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n tuturduq. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 bu planlaman\u0131 ed\u0259nd\u0259 C\u0259lal M\u0259mm\u0259dov dedi ki, Mirz\u0259 \u0130brahimov Kr\u0131mdad\u0131r. Oradan m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131b ki, bir povest var qurtarmaq \u00fczr\u0259dir, \u0259s\u0259ri onuncu n\u00f6mr\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutun. M\u0259n d\u0259 dedim ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 \u00e7apa q\u0259d\u0259r Mirz\u0259 \u0259s\u0259ri bitir\u0259 bilm\u0259di. \u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylislinin bir povesti var, g\u0259lin, onu \u00e7ap ed\u0259k. \u018fkr\u0259m, indi t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259dir, qonorara ehtiyac\u0131 var. Bu s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ona nec\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131larsa, qay\u0131dandan sonra Mirz\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b dedi ki, s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 yazmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n – Bilirik ki, \u018fkr\u0259ml\u0259 \u0130sa Mu\u011fannan\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti olmay\u0131b. \u0130sa da sizin day\u0131n\u0131z o\u011fludur. Mu\u011fanna \u018fkr\u0259ml\u0259 olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tiniz\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 demirdi ki?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Birincisi, \u0130sa \u00e7ox obyektiv adam idi, he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259n\u0259 \u018fkr\u0259ml\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259ni k\u0259s dem\u0259zdi. \u0130kincisi d\u0259, onda h\u0259l\u0259 onlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 yox idi. Sonradan ba\u015flad\u0131 davalar\u0131.<\/p>\n – Mu\u011fanna \u00fcn e\u015fitdiyini deyirdi. Onun bu fikirl\u0259rin\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tiniz nec\u0259 idi?<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259n ona inan\u0131rd\u0131m. O he\u00e7 n\u0259yi el\u0259-bel\u0259 demirdi.<\/p>\n – B\u0259lk\u0259 \u201cVicdan susanda\u201ddak\u0131 V\u00fcqarla \u0130sm\u0259t el\u0259 \u0130sa il\u0259 Vidadidir. \u0130ki qohum,\u00a0Bak\u0131da kiray\u0259 qalan t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 kimi, sizin kimi.<\/strong><\/p>\n – V\u00fcqar dem\u0259k olar ki, 60 faiz m\u0259n\u0259m, bunda haql\u0131san. Ancaq \u0130sa \u0130sm\u0259t deyil. \u201cH\u0259yat bizi s\u0131nay\u0131r\u201ddak\u0131 H\u0259sr\u0259tin taleyind\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, yetimliyimi vermi\u015f\u0259m. Ancaq V\u00fcqardak\u0131 kimi \u00e7ox yox.<\/p>\n – Dediniz ki, \u201cVicdan susanda\u201d roman\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u0259lalar \u00e7\u0259kmisiniz. \u0130\u015fsiz qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z o d\u00f6rd ild\u0259 \u201cka\u015f bu \u0259s\u0259ri yazmazd\u0131m\u201d dediyiniz oldumu?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Yox, dem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131mdan bel\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259yib. M\u0259n indi oxuya bilmir\u0259m. Bu yax\u0131nlarda internetd\u0259 roman\u0131n s\u0259sli variant\u0131na qulaq asd\u0131m. \u0130ll\u0259r sonra \u0259s\u0259rini yenid\u0259n oxuyan yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar b\u0259z\u0259n deyir ki, ka\u015f bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni el\u0259 yox, bel\u0259 yazard\u0131m. Ancaq m\u0259n o \u0259s\u0259ri bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, eyni \u015feyi yazard\u0131m, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259d\u0259n. Bu \u0259s\u0259r m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r yat\u0131r ki… H\u0259r \u015fey yerli yerind\u0259dir: epizodlar, obrazlar, hadis\u0259l\u0259r. \u018flli ild\u0259n sonra da \u00f6z yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6z xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir. M\u0259n \u201cVicdan susanda\u201dn\u0131 yazanda \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rin havas\u0131n\u0131n qorunmas\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si bug\u00fcnk\u00fc kimi aktual deyildi. Siz t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edin ki, m\u0259n bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni altm\u0131\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l yazm\u0131\u015fam. Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 roman aktuall\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259yib, oxunur. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 kitab ma\u011fazas\u0131nda bu \u0259s\u0259ri tapmay\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259nl\u0259r var.<\/p>\n – \u018fs\u0259ri yazanda bu u\u011furu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Yox, g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, o biri \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rim kimi sevil\u0259c\u0259k, ancaq bel\u0259 bir u\u011fur g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim.<\/p>\n – Sevmisiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Bir d\u0259f\u0259 sevmi\u015f\u0259m. O da al\u0131nmay\u0131b. O vaxt m\u0259n kas\u0131b, yetim bir o\u011flan idim. Layiq bilib o q\u0131z\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 verm\u0259dil\u0259r. M\u0259nim onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 inanmad\u0131lar.<\/p>\n – Q\u0131z da inanmad\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Q\u0131z inand\u0131. Ancaq ail\u0259si verm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259n sonra n\u0259 etm\u0259li?<\/p>\n – Bir yerd\u0259 qa\u00e7mal\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n – Qism\u0259t deyilmi\u015f. Sonra o q\u0131z\u0131 ba\u015fqas\u0131na verdil\u0259r. Q\u0131z da xo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n – Siz nec\u0259, xo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bildinizmi?<\/strong><\/p>\n – H\u0259qiqi m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t bir d\u0259f\u0259 olur. O da o q\u0131z idi. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131mla is\u0259 bir-birimizi b\u0259y\u0259nib evl\u0259nmi\u015fik. E\u015fq ba\u015fqad\u0131r, b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259k ba\u015fqa. Ancaq oras\u0131n\u0131 da deyim ki, m\u0259nim h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 sar\u0131dan b\u0259xtim g\u0259tirib. O m\u0259ni h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, d\u0259st\u0259k olub. M\u0259n \u0259s\u0259ri yazandan sonra makinada oturub \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. M\u0259nim pulum haradayd\u0131, onu kim\u0259s\u0259 yazd\u0131r\u0131m.<\/p>\n – Lap Dostoyevskinin arvad\u0131 kimi…<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259hz onun kimi. Pulsuz oldu\u011fum vaxtlarda da m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fc. Allah ona r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin. \u201cVicdan susanda\u201d Moskvada \u00e7ap olunmasayd\u0131, m\u0259n borcdan \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259zdim. M\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin h\u0259yat ke\u00e7irmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259tin. Q\u00fcrurlu olma\u011f\u0131m da bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n. Yaltaq olmam\u0131\u015fam, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 \u0259yilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n – D\u0259ydi?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, d\u0259ydi. Xalq\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc t\u0259r\u0259zidir. Xalq m\u0259ni \u0259yilm\u0259z, d\u00fcz adam kimi tan\u0131y\u0131r.<\/p>\n – Xalq\u0131n sevimli yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 olmama\u011f\u0131 incitmir b\u0259s?<\/strong><\/p>\n – M\u0259n\u00a0q\u00fcrurlu adam olmu\u015fam. He\u00e7 vaxt he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bunu \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fam. Xalq bilir kim kimdir. Bu g\u00fcn \u201cXalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131\u201d ad\u0131n\u0131 da\u015f\u0131yanlar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259tini xalq tan\u0131m\u0131r. M\u0259n \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rimi nec\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam b\u0259llidir. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edin ki, \u201cVicdan susanda\u201dn\u0131 yazmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir il kimya\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n yan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. O vaxt Milli Elml\u0259r Akademiyas\u0131nda vitse-prezident M\u0259mm\u0259d Arif Dada\u015fzad\u0259nin yan\u0131na gedib dedim ki, kimya\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131ndan \u0259s\u0259r yazmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m, ancaq onlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 bilmir\u0259m. M\u0259ni onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda bir i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldin. O da dedi ki, s\u0259n filoloqsan, m\u0259n s\u0259ni ora yaln\u0131z kitabxana\u00e7\u0131 kimi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. M\u0259n d\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m ki, \u0259sas odur onlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ola bilim. Bel\u0259c\u0259, m\u0259n orada kitabxana m\u00fcdiri kimi i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. Ancaq i\u015f\u0259 girm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259 M\u0259mm\u0259d Arif m\u00fc\u0259llimd\u0259n xahi\u015f etdim ki, m\u0259nim yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 oldu\u011fumu kollektiv\u0259 dem\u0259sin. \u00c7\u00fcnki onlar m\u0259nim yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 oldu\u011fumu bils\u0259, m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015feyi gizl\u0259d\u0259 bil\u0259rdil\u0259r. Xahi\u015fimi yer\u0259 salmad\u0131.<\/p>\n – B\u0259s, kimya\u00e7\u0131lar \u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 bunu hiss etm\u0259di?<\/strong><\/p>\n – T\u0259xmin\u0259n bir il sonra direktor m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b dedi ki, s\u0259nd\u0259n M\u0259rk\u0259zi Komit\u0259y\u0259 \u0259riz\u0259 yaz\u0131blar. \u018friz\u0259d\u0259 qeyd olunub ki, \u201cVidadi kitabxanada az-az g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Y\u0259qin bu direktorun adam\u0131d\u0131r. M\u00fcft\u0259 maa\u015f al\u0131r\u201d. Biz indi n\u0259 ed\u0259k? M\u0259n d\u0259 dedim ki, indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259ndikl\u0259rim m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259s ed\u0259r. \u0130ndi adamlar\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b m\u0259nim yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 oldu\u011fumu dey\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz. Bunu dey\u0259nd\u0259n sonra o katib\u0259sin\u0259 z\u0259ng edib i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259ri yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmas\u0131n\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130clasda m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131b dan\u0131\u015fanda iki n\u0259f\u0259r q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zard\u0131. M\u0259n onda bildim ki, \u0259riz\u0259 bunlar\u0131n i\u015fidir.<\/p>\n – \u018fd\u0259biyyata n\u0259srl\u0259 g\u0259lmisiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u018fslind\u0259, m\u0259n \u0259d\u0259biyyata \u015feirl\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. \u015eeirl\u0259rim d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lan\u0131b. \u0130lk \u015feirl\u0259rimi S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fun oxuyub, b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdi. H\u0259tta sonra \u00e7ap da el\u0259tdirdi.<\/p>\n – B\u0259lk\u0259 bu d\u0259st\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u201cGizlinl\u0259r\u201d kitab\u0131n\u0131zda Vur\u011fun haqq\u0131nda xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259r yazm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. B\u0259lk\u0259 bu c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri v\u0259fa borcu yazd\u0131r\u0131b siz\u0259.<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u018fsla. Onun \u015fairliyi kimi d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 var idi. \u201cGizlinl\u0259r\u201dd\u0259 yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n onun \u00f6z dilind\u0259n e\u015fitdikl\u0259rim idi. Onun \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00fcr\u0259yi vard\u0131. Onun ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti olan qad\u0131n var ha, 1943-c\u00fc ild\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259nin \u0259n q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131nda S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fundan z\u0259ng edib xahi\u015f edir ki, \u201cU\u015faqlar\u0131m x\u0259st\u0259dir, ail\u0259m \u00e7ox pis v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259dir. Bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259rimi m\u00fcharib\u0259y\u0259 apar\u0131rlar. S\u0259ni tan\u0131y\u0131rlar, s\u0259nin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yer\u0259 salmazlar. \u018frimi m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n saxlatma\u011fa m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259\u201d. S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fun dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, o m\u0259nd\u0259n z\u0259ng edib bunu ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bilm\u0259yib n\u0259 etsin. Qarda\u015f\u0131 Mehdixana z\u0259ng edib m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Mehdixan da deyib ki, \u201cs\u0259n bu xahi\u015fi m\u00fctl\u0259q yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259lis\u0259n. Yoxsa el\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r ki, k\u00f6hn\u0259 intiqam\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131rsan\u201d.<\/p>\n Bundan sonra Vur\u011fun Mirc\u0259f\u0259r Ba\u011f\u0131rovun q\u0259buluna gedir. Mirc\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 deyir ki, y\u0259qin, siz m\u0259nim ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tim haqq\u0131nda e\u015fitmisiniz. Ba\u011f\u0131rov da g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcb deyir ki, onu kim bilmir ki?\u00a0Vur\u011fun m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni ona dan\u0131\u015fandan sonra Ba\u011f\u0131rov deyir ki, s\u0259nin x\u0259trini o\u011flum q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m, narahat olma. Ba\u011f\u0131rov Vur\u011funun xahi\u015fi il\u0259 h\u0259min adam\u0131 bir il c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259n saxlatd\u0131r\u0131r. Vur\u011fun bel\u0259 adam idi.<\/p>\n – Ancaq \u015fairin ikinci xahi\u015fini Ba\u011f\u0131rov yer\u0259 sal\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n – \u0130kinci xahi\u015fi M\u00fc\u015ffiql\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 olur. Vur\u011funla Ba\u011f\u0131rov bir d\u0259f\u0259 Moskvadan bir vaqonda qay\u0131d\u0131r. Yolda Vur\u011fun M\u00fc\u015ffiqd\u0259n s\u00f6z sal\u0131b, onun taleyind\u0259n nigaran oldu\u011funu deyir. Ba\u011f\u0131rov da Bak\u0131ya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni partiya iclas\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 deyir ki, \u201cbu da bizim g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fun. G\u00f6r\u00fcn, m\u0259nd\u0259n kimi soru\u015fur. M\u00fc\u015ffiqi…\u201d<\/p>\n – Vidadi m\u00fc\u0259llim, \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259 yaz\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z ki, Ba\u011f\u0131rov Vur\u011funa \u201cQospad\u0131n\u201d dey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t edir. D\u00fcz\u00fc, bu m\u0259qam m\u0259nim a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r. Niy\u0259 yolda\u015f yox, c\u0259nab yaz\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? Bel\u0259 bir detal sizin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fczd\u0259n qa\u00e7a bilm\u0259zdi, ax\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n – Ba\u011f\u0131rov ona sata\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn c\u0259nab deyir. Y\u0259ni onu yolda\u015f s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 layiq bilmir.<\/p>\n – Vidadi Babanl\u0131 dey\u0259nd\u0259 bir d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131la \u201cH\u0259yat bizi s\u0131nay\u0131r\u201d g\u0259lir. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcz raz\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131 filmd\u0259n?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Tam yox \u00e7\u00fcnki,\u00a0film \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259nd\u0259 rejissorla m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259rimiz oldu. Rejissor b\u0259zi laz\u0131ml\u0131 \u015feyl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7di, obraz\u0131 tam g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259di, x\u0131rda m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ox getdi.<\/p>\n – B\u0259s, aktyorlar?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Amaliya P\u0259nahova pis oynam\u0131rd\u0131. Amaliyan\u0131n o\u011flanla dialoqlarda bir az pafos var. Eld\u0259niz V\u0259liyevin oyunundan is\u0259 he\u00e7 xo\u015fum g\u0259lm\u0259di.<\/p>\n – Bug\u00fcnk\u00fc \u0259d\u0259bi prosesl\u0259rd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259riniz varm\u0131? Sizi n\u0259 narahat edir?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Kitablar\u0131n yay\u0131m m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si bizim yaral\u0131 yerimizdir. Kitab\u0131 \u00e7ap edib verirl\u0259r m\u00fc\u0259llifin qoltu\u011funa. N\u0259\u015friyyatlar da kitab\u0131n sat\u0131\u015f\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 m\u0259suliyy\u0259t g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259lidir. \u018fd\u0259bi prosesl\u0259ri t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, izl\u0259y\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. G\u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6rm\u00fcr dey\u0259, t\u0259z\u0259 yazanlardan\u00a0oxuya bilmir\u0259m, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim yoxdur.<\/p>\n – Telefonunuza z\u0259ng g\u0259ls\u0259, kimin s\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259rdiniz?<\/strong><\/p>\n – Eh… M\u0259nim dostlar\u0131m indi h\u0259yatda yoxdur. El\u0259 bir \u015fans\u0131m olsa, \u00e7ox ist\u0259y\u0259rdim ki, \u0130smay\u0131l \u015e\u0131xl\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fidim. N\u0259bi X\u0259zrinin, Cabir Novruzun s\u0259sini e\u015fidim.<\/p>\n – Az qala bir \u0259sr ya\u015fam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. M\u0259n\u0259 bu ill\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259ndiyiniz \u0259n \u00f6n\u0259mli \u015feyi deyin.<\/strong><\/p>\n – Pax\u0131ll\u0131qdan uzaq ol, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259d aparma. \u00dcr\u0259yini t\u0259miz saxla. \u0130nsan q\u0259lbini \u00e7irkin hisl\u0259rl\u0259 dolduranda \u00f6mr\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6d\u0259k olur. M\u0259ni bu q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fadan \u00fcr\u0259yimin t\u0259mizliyidir. S\u0259n\u0259 yamanl\u0131q ed\u0259n adama yamanl\u0131qla cavab verm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma. \u0130nsan qocalanda yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131 il\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259nir. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 pislik ed\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 olacaq, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 qazanlar da olacaq. Amma s\u0259n bunlara fikir verm\u0259. Qoy, s\u0259ni \u00fcr\u0259yinin t\u0259mizliyi ya\u015fats\u0131n. Nec\u0259 ki, m\u0259ni 94 il ya\u015fad\u0131b…<\/p>\n M\u0259nb\u0259: APA<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n \u0259m\u0259kdar inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t xadimi, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Vidadi Babanl\u0131n\u0131n\u00a0m\u00fcsahib\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edirik: – Art\u0131q 94 ya\u015f\u0131 haqlam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. Bu g\u00fcn h\u0259yatla nec\u0259 yola gedirsiniz? Nec\u0259siniz? – Qocal\u0131qd\u0131r da. Qula\u011f\u0131m a\u011f\u0131r e\u015fidir, g\u00f6z\u00fcm z\u0259if g\u00f6r\u00fcr, ayaqlar\u0131m s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxm\u0131r. Ancaq bel\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131yan yerim yoxdur. Yax\u015f\u0131yam. – N\u0259s\u0259 yaz\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131? – Bu yax\u0131nlarda \u201cSabaha ismar\u0131c\u201d adl\u0131 bir \u0259s\u0259r yazm\u0131\u015fam. Onu da dikt\u0259 il\u0259 yazd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam. G\u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6rm\u00fcr h\u0259rfl\u0259ri. Dikt\u0259 il\u0259 yazd\u0131rmaq da \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir. – Laqeydlik sizi incitmir? – \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, incidir. M\u0259nim bu q\u0259d\u0259r xidm\u0259tl\u0259rim var, ax\u0131. Alt\u0131 roman\u0131m, \u015feirl\u0259rim, d\u00f6rd povestim, ne\u00e7\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259m var. – T\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259l\u0259rinizd\u0259n biri d\u0259…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":377917,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"categories":[26],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"gutentor_comment":0,"rttpg_featured_image_url":{"full":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949.jpg",620,413,false],"landscape":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949.jpg",620,413,false],"portraits":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949.jpg",620,413,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949-500x280.jpg",500,280,true],"medium":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949-548x365.jpg",548,365,true],"large":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949.jpg",620,413,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949.jpg",620,413,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949.jpg",620,413,false],"post-thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949-240x172.jpg",240,172,true],"advps-thumb-one":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/FotoJet-2021-09-14T144515.949.jpg",620,413,false]},"rttpg_author":{"display_name":"V\u00fcsal Rafiqo\u011flu","author_link":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/?author=2"},"rttpg_comment":0,"rttpg_category":"Sosial<\/a>","rttpg_excerpt":"Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n \u0259m\u0259kdar inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t xadimi, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Vidadi Babanl\u0131n\u0131n\u00a0m\u00fcsahib\u0259sini t\u0259qdim edirik: – Art\u0131q 94 ya\u015f\u0131 haqlam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. Bu g\u00fcn h\u0259yatla nec\u0259 yola gedirsiniz? Nec\u0259siniz? – Qocal\u0131qd\u0131r da. Qula\u011f\u0131m a\u011f\u0131r e\u015fidir, g\u00f6z\u00fcm z\u0259if g\u00f6r\u00fcr, ayaqlar\u0131m s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxm\u0131r. Ancaq bel\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131yan yerim yoxdur. Yax\u015f\u0131yam. – N\u0259s\u0259 yaz\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131? – Bu yax\u0131nlarda \u201cSabaha ismar\u0131c\u201d adl\u0131 bir \u0259s\u0259r yazm\u0131\u015fam. Onu da dikt\u0259 il\u0259…","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/377910"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=377910"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/377910\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/377917"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=377910"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=377910"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=377910"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}<\/p>\n
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