O, Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin T\u0259tbiqi Riyaziyyat fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin m\u0259zunu olub. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 oldu\u011fu d\u00f6vrd\u0259 \u0130smay\u0131l M\u0259mm\u0259dovla ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurub. Lakin \u0259rinin qada\u011falar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yib. Polis \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131 olan \u0130.M\u0259mm\u0259dov Xan\u0131m M\u0259mm\u0259dovaya geyim v\u0259 ba\u015fqa insanlarla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259tl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 qada\u011falar qoyulub.<\/p>\n
H\u0259min m\u0259tni oldu\u011fu kimi t\u0259qdim edirik:<\/p>\n
“Haradan ba\u015flay\u0131m, n\u0259 deyim bilmir\u0259m. Ama bir \u015feyi bilir\u0259m ki, \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 bo\u011fuluram, \u00f6z qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bat\u0131ram. Ka\u015f ki, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259nim s\u0259ni q\u0259bul etdiyim kimi q\u0259bul ed\u0259ydin. Bir s\u00f6z var e, deyirl\u0259r ki, h\u0259r \u015feyi oldu\u011fu kimi q\u0259bul et, olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259diyin kimi yox. Bax m\u0259n s\u0259ni oldu\u011fun kimi q\u0259bul etmi\u015f\u0259m. Amma s\u0259n m\u0259ni oldu\u011fum kimi yox, olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ist\u0259diyin kimi q\u0259bul etmis\u0259n. Beynind\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir Xan\u0131m yaratm\u0131san, \u00f6z ist\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 uy\u011fun… M\u0259nim hissl\u0259rimi, arzular\u0131m\u0131, duy\u011fular\u0131m\u0131, x\u0259yallar\u0131m\u0131 he\u00e7\u0259 sayaraq. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259nin beynind\u0259 yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131n Xan\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 uy\u011funla\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc v\u0259 m\u0259nliyimi he\u00e7\u0259 sayaraq. Ama s\u0259n bunu he\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
![\""H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259](\"https:\/\/upload.az\/foto\/arxiv\/h1_11641464036.jpg\")
Art\u0131q \u00e7ox yorulmu\u015fam i\u00e7imd\u0259ki dey\u0259n, g\u00fcl\u0259n, \u015f\u0259n, \u015f\u0131ltaq Xan\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131x\u0131b, s\u0259nin beynind\u0259ki o Xan\u0131m kimi olmaqdan. Bilir\u0259m, bu, \u00e7ox axmaqca bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tdir, \u00e7ox s\u0259hvdir. Sanki \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, m\u0259nliyimi qurban etmi\u015f\u0259m. He\u00e7 vaxt imkan verm\u0259mis\u0259n ki, s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda rahat olum, s\u0259rb\u0259st olum. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n, demis\u0259n “\u015fitlik el\u0259m\u0259”, n\u0259s\u0259 s\u00f6z dem\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, demis\u0259n “\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yax\u0131n hiss el\u0259din dey\u0259s\u0259n”, “…\u0259ld\u0259n getdi dey\u0259s\u0259n”. Ax\u0131 s\u0259n m\u0259nim ail\u0259ms\u0259n, m\u0259n \u0259n rahat, \u0259n yax\u0131n s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda olmal\u0131yam. He\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mis\u0259n. Des\u0259m ki, “\u0130smay\u0131l evd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r, bir az havaya \u00e7\u0131xaq”, \u00f6z ist\u0259yini fikirl\u0259\u015fmis\u0259n, s\u0259n\u0259 uy\u011fundursa qoymusan, uy\u011fun deyils\u0259 qoymam\u0131san.<\/p>\n
M\u0259nim hissl\u0259rim, ist\u0259kl\u0259rim s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259nas\u0131zd\u0131r. \u0130nan ki, he\u00e7 ist\u0259m\u0259zdim bunu deyim, amma bu bel\u0259dir h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n. M\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131m ikiy\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcb. Anam\u0131n, atam\u0131n yan\u0131nda tam rahat oldu\u011fum kimi oluram. Amma s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda ba\u015fqa, tam ba\u015fqa biri v\u0259 bunu s\u0259n yaratm\u0131san. S\u0259nin yan\u0131nda n\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259 bilir\u0259m, n\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259 bilir\u0259m, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fc dey\u0259 bilir\u0259m. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259rini- …, …, fahi\u015f\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259rini n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r demis\u0259ns\u0259, art\u0131q psixologiyam pozulub. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fam. Deyir\u0259m g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n bel\u0259dir? B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n onun dediyi kimiy\u0259m? S\u0259n bilirs\u0259n bu hissl\u0259r nec\u0259 qorxuncdur? \u0130nsan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 etm\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r faci\u0259li bir hiss ola bilm\u0259z.
\n![\""H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259](\"https:\/\/upload.az\/foto\/arxiv\/h2_71641464036.png\")
H\u0259yat m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox m\u0259nas\u0131z v\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r. Art\u0131q m\u0259n\u0259vi v\u0259 ruh\u0259n \u00e7ox yor\u011funam. H\u0259l\u0259 bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u0259 etm\u0259mi\u015fik, ed\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fik. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xan k\u0259lim\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00fcdm\u00fcs\u0259n, Xan\u0131m n\u0259s\u0259 bir s\u00f6z desin, problem \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n, vurum onu. Bo\u011fuluram n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131qca. Art\u0131q m\u0259ni oldu\u011fum kimi q\u0259bul et. \u0130nan ki, m\u0259n s\u0259nin beynind\u0259 yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131n Xan\u0131mdan daha da yax\u015f\u0131, h\u0259r \u015feyi anlayan, xo\u015f, g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fcz, \u015f\u0259n biriy\u0259m. M\u0259n pis insan deyil\u0259m \u0130smay\u0131l, b\u0259sdir art\u0131q m\u0259ni pis biri kimi tan\u0131td\u0131n ham\u0131ya. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki m\u0259ni, u\u015faq kimi, \u015f\u0131ltaq, \u015f\u0259n, uyumlu Xan\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259. M\u0259ni tan\u0131ma\u011fa, anlama\u011fa, q\u0259bul etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f. S\u0131xma\u011fa, bo\u011fma\u011fa, \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 yox. M\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rma, yalvar\u0131ram. X\u0259yal\u0131mdak\u0131 o xo\u015fb\u0259xt ail\u0259ni m\u0259hv etm\u0259. \u00c7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt anayam, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr yaradana. Amma xo\u015fb\u0259xt qad\u0131n deyil\u0259m. K\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259, yard\u0131m\u00e7\u0131 ol ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt qad\u0131n olum…”.<\/p>\n
Xat\u0131rladaq ki, hadis\u0259 2021-ci il sentyabr\u0131n 30-da Nizami rayonundak\u0131 24-c\u00fc Polis \u015e\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259 ba\u015f verib. Bel\u0259 ki, \u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259n qad\u0131n ondan \u015fikay\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lib. \u0130.M\u0259mm\u0259dov azya\u015fl\u0131 \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda\u00a0xidm\u0259ti<\/a>\u00a0silahla 15 d\u0259f\u0259 at\u0259\u015f a\u00e7araq h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259tl\u0259 yetirib.<\/p>\n Cinay\u0259t i\u015fi bax\u0131lmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Bak\u0131 A\u011f\u0131r Cinay\u0259tl\u0259r M\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rilib.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bak\u0131da 24-c\u00fc polis \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259 polis \u0259ri \u0130smay\u0131l M\u0259mm\u0259dov t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259n Xan\u0131m M\u0259mm\u0259dovan\u0131n \u00e7antas\u0131ndan m\u0259ktub tap\u0131l\u0131b. ARANTV.AZ\u00a0 x\u0259b\u0259r\u00a0verir ki, Kriminalqafqaz-\u0131n \u0259ld\u0259 etdiyi m\u0259lumata g\u00f6r\u0259, g\u00fcnd\u0259likd\u0259 h\u0259yat dolu, \u015f\u0259n bir qad\u0131n oldu\u011funu qeyd ed\u0259n X.M\u0259mm\u0259dova \u0259rinin ona qoydu\u011fu qada\u011falara g\u00f6r\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fclm\u0259yi bel\u0259 bacarmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131b. Cinay\u0259t i\u015finin istintaq\u0131 zaman\u0131 X.M\u0259mm\u0259dovan\u0131n \u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131ndak\u0131 pulqab\u0131dan \u0259lyazma m\u0259tn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. O, Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin T\u0259tbiqi Riyaziyyat fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin m\u0259zunu olub. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 oldu\u011fu d\u00f6vrd\u0259 \u0130smay\u0131l M\u0259mm\u0259dovla ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurub. Lakin \u0259rinin qada\u011falar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yib. Polis \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131 olan \u0130.M\u0259mm\u0259dov Xan\u0131m M\u0259mm\u0259dovaya geyim v\u0259 ba\u015fqa insanlarla…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":422996,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"gutentor_comment":0,"rttpg_featured_image_url":{"full":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973.jpg",637,400,false],"landscape":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973.jpg",637,400,false],"portraits":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973.jpg",637,400,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973-500x280.jpg",500,280,true],"medium":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973-581x365.jpg",581,365,true],"large":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973.jpg",637,400,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973.jpg",637,400,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973.jpg",637,400,false],"post-thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973-240x172.jpg",240,172,true],"advps-thumb-one":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/01\/hemise_51641463973.jpg",637,400,false]},"rttpg_author":{"display_name":"V\u00fcsal Rafiqo\u011flu","author_link":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/?author=2"},"rttpg_comment":0,"rttpg_category":"Hadis\u0259<\/a>","rttpg_excerpt":"Bak\u0131da 24-c\u00fc polis \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259 polis \u0259ri \u0130smay\u0131l M\u0259mm\u0259dov t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259n Xan\u0131m M\u0259mm\u0259dovan\u0131n \u00e7antas\u0131ndan m\u0259ktub tap\u0131l\u0131b. ARANTV.AZ\u00a0 x\u0259b\u0259r\u00a0verir ki, Kriminalqafqaz-\u0131n \u0259ld\u0259 etdiyi m\u0259lumata g\u00f6r\u0259, g\u00fcnd\u0259likd\u0259 h\u0259yat dolu, \u015f\u0259n bir qad\u0131n oldu\u011funu qeyd ed\u0259n X.M\u0259mm\u0259dova \u0259rinin ona qoydu\u011fu qada\u011falara g\u00f6r\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fclm\u0259yi bel\u0259 bacarmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131b. Cinay\u0259t i\u015finin istintaq\u0131 zaman\u0131 X.M\u0259mm\u0259dovan\u0131n \u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131ndak\u0131 pulqab\u0131dan \u0259lyazma m\u0259tn…","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/422995"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=422995"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/422995\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/422996"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=422995"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=422995"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=422995"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}