\u201cDostla d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni ay\u0131rd ed\u0259 bils\u0259ydim bu g\u00fcn\u0259 he\u00e7 qalard\u0131m? Onu se\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Saf oldum, \u00fcr\u0259yimin t\u0259mizliyind\u0259n, \u015f\u0131ltaql\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan, \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m efir\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. G\u00f6z\u0259l geyinirdim, b\u0259d\u0259n qurulu\u015fum g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. Amma o g\u00f6z\u0259l geyimd\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 kimi n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 edib, g\u0259lib verili\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 sakit, ba\u015f\u0131a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, dinm\u0259z otursayd\u0131m, dey\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r ki, bundan var? Amma t\u0259miz v\u0259 saf oldum oturdum, onu ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr yozub, yazd\u0131lar. O biclikl\u0259ri bilm\u0259dim. Nec\u0259 varamsa, el\u0259 d\u0259 oldum\u201d.<\/p>\n
Bizim.media\u00a0x\u0259b\u0259r verir ki, bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni\u00a0M\u0259tan\u0259t \u018fs\u0259dova\u00a0qonaq oldu\u011fu verili\u015fl\u0259rin birind\u0259 deyib.<\/p>\n
S\u0259n\u0259t\u00e7i bildirib ki, s\u0259birsizliyind\u0259n dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi fikirl\u0259r qalmaqala v\u0259 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olub:<\/p>\n
\u201cS\u0259hn\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn inqilab oldu. M\u0259rdi qova-qova nam\u0259rd etdil\u0259r. Haqq\u0131mda: \u201cBu bilirs\u0259n n\u0259dir?\u201d, – dedil\u0259r. Amma m\u0259ni tan\u0131yan insan –\u00a0\u201cS\u0259n n\u0259 yaz\u0131q insansan?\u201d, –\u00a0s\u00f6yl\u0259di. S\u0259birsiz olmu\u015fam. \u00c7oxbilmi\u015f m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fc kimi bilib. \u00c7oxbilmi\u015f\u0259 fikrimi \u00e7atd\u0131ra bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ki, m\u0259n bunu dem\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, bura q\u0259d\u0259r\u0259m. S\u0259n m\u0259ni ba\u015fqa t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259r\u0259 yozma\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u018fs\u0259dovan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, uzun ill\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l bayram verili\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015ftirak ets\u0259 d\u0259, bir s\u0131ra Xalq artistl\u0259rinin g\u00f6st\u0259ri\u015fi il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 efird\u0259n k\u0259sibl\u0259r:<\/p>\n
\u201cO q\u0259d\u0259r olub ki, verili\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259ki \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259sib efir\u0259 verm\u0259yibl\u0259r. M\u0259nim g\u00fcn\u00fcm bu olub. S\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 yeni \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m vaxtlarda cavan q\u0131z idim, ham\u0131ya demi\u015f\u0259m ki, y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n, indi m\u0259ni efird\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Ham\u0131 oxuyur, amma M\u0259tan\u0259t yoxdur. Yeni il, Novruz \u015f\u0259nlikl\u0259rind\u0259 M\u0259tan\u0259t yoxdur. \u00c7\u0259kili\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 gedib, mahn\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 oxuyurdum, amma m\u0259ni sonra efird\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n
Deyirdil\u0259r ki, burada i\u015f\u0131q yand\u0131. \u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n yanmas\u0131 el\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Sifari\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259ni efird\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bunu is\u0259 s\u0259si olmayan Xalq artistl\u0259ri edirdil\u0259r. El\u0259l\u0259ri var ki, indi yoxdur, d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fibl\u0259r. Ka\u015f \u00e7oxdan yox olard\u0131lar. Amma el\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 var ki, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r. N\u0259 deyib ya\u015fay\u0131rsa, ya\u015fay\u0131r da. B\u0259z\u0259n olur ki, \u201ccan\u201d deyib, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131rlar. Xasiyy\u0259tim el\u0259dir ki, yalandan g\u00fcl\u00fcb, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131r\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilmir\u0259m. Ona xo\u015f olsun dey\u0259 niy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u0259zab verm\u0259liy\u0259m ki?<\/p>\n
Cismani c\u0259za verir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259. G\u00f6z\u0259llik salonuna gedirdim. Orada da xaricd\u0259n g\u0259tiril\u0259n mallar g\u0259tirilib sat\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Bu h\u0259m geyim, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259rzaq mallar\u0131 idi. H\u0259min m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnil\u0259rd\u0259n biri demi\u015fdi ki, bunun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 geyiml\u0259rl\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131n, mahn\u0131 yazd\u0131rmas\u0131n, s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n\u201d.<\/p>\n
M\u0259tan\u0259t, h\u0259m\u00e7inin bildirib ki, qad\u0131n h\u0259mkar\u0131 onu z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, alt\u0131 il s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131b:<\/p>\n
\u201cAlt\u0131 il s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131m, mahn\u0131 oxumad\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259ni z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259dil\u0259r. S\u0259sim is\u0259 batd\u0131. M\u0259cbur\u0259n m\u0259ni bir ev\u0259 qonaq \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Getmirdim, amma m\u0259cbur el\u0259dil\u0259r ki, ora qonaq gedim. Getdim v\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ma bel\u0259 hadis\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131m ki, m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcnl\u0259r. S\u0259sim tamamil\u0259 yox idi.<\/p>\n
Gec\u0259 v\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz a\u011flay\u0131b, Allaha yalvar\u0131rd\u0131m ki, n\u0259yimi \u0259limd\u0259n al\u0131rsansa al, amma s\u0259simi m\u0259n\u0259 qaytar. M\u0259nim ba\u015fqa yolum yoxdur. \u018flimi a\u00e7\u0131b m\u0259cbur dil\u0259n\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ist\u0259dim s\u0259simin qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Sonradan s\u0259sim a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 getdim toylara.<\/p>\n
H\u0259r gec\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 kimi 10-15 geyim d\u0259yi\u015firdim, \u00e7\u00fcnki \u00e7ox t\u0259rl\u0259yirdim. Suyun i\u00e7ind\u0259 olurdum. Sonra bu hal pis n\u0259tic\u0259 verdi. H\u0259kiml\u0259r dedil\u0259r ki, oxumusan s\u0259sin bat\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Sonradan bildim ki, m\u0259ni z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259yibl\u0259r. S\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, h\u0259min qad\u0131n m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nninin a\u011fz\u0131ndan qa\u00e7d\u0131. Ona dedim ki, Allah s\u0259n\u0259 l\u0259n\u0259t el\u0259sin. Allah onu el\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ham\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. M\u0259n onun ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259r\u0259m, dem\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Sosial \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zd\u0259n salmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haqq\u0131mda xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z \u015f\u0259rhl\u0259r yazd\u0131r\u0131rlar. M\u0259nim he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 i\u015fim yoxdur. M\u0259tan\u0259t bir d\u0259n\u0259dir, n\u0259 ist\u0259yirsiniz m\u0259nd\u0259n? M\u0259tan\u0259t sizl\u0259 art\u0131q ya\u015fam\u0131r. H\u0259r \u015fey sizd\u0259 var. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 budur\u201d.<\/p>\n