{"id":77888,"date":"2019-09-10T09:00:20","date_gmt":"2019-09-10T06:00:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/arantv.az\/?p=77888"},"modified":"2019-09-10T09:00:20","modified_gmt":"2019-09-10T06:00:20","slug":"hardan-bil%c9%99ydim-ki-ata-evind%c9%99ki-doyulm%c9%99l%c9%99r-%c9%99r-evind%c9%99kinin-yaninda-hec-n%c9%99-olacaq","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/?p=77888","title":{"rendered":"“Hardan bil\u0259ydim ki, ata evind\u0259ki d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r \u0259r evind\u0259kinin yan\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 olacaq?”"},"content":{"rendered":"

H\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 toy \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini g\u00f6st\u0259rir, yad\u0131nda saxlamaq ist\u0259diyi is\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 b\u0259r-b\u0259z\u0259kli g\u0259lin donudur. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 donuna bax\u0131r, b\u0259yin oldu\u011fu yerl\u0259r is\u0259 \u015f\u0259klin qalan hiss\u0259sin\u0259 z\u0259r\u0259r vurmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ehtiyatla k\u0259silib.
\n“El\u0259 bilirdim evl\u0259n\u0259n kimi b\u00fct\u00fcn probleml\u0259r bit\u0259c\u0259k. Hardan bil\u0259ydim ki, ata evind\u0259ki d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r \u0259r evind\u0259kinin yan\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 olacaq?” – g\u0259nc qad\u0131n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr.
\n\u0130nsan hekay\u0259l\u0259ri silsil\u0259sind\u0259n bu yaz\u0131m\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 28 ya\u015fl\u0131 Aynurdur. O, m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n kimi ail\u0259 qurub. Deyir ki, evd\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn dava-dala\u015f oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fib ki, evl\u0259nm\u0259k “yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu ola bil\u0259r”.
\nBir yax\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n tan\u0131\u015f etdiyi o\u011flanla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131b, iki ay sonra is\u0259 onu ail\u0259si il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f edib, bir n\u00f6v “el\u00e7ilik olub”.
\nAynur deyir ki, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 t\u00fcrkiy\u0259li oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ail\u0259si qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, ancaq sonradan onun t\u0259kidi il\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015f\u0131blar.
\n“H\u0259m anam, h\u0259m atam \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 dedil\u0259r ki, b\u0259s T\u00fcrkiy\u0259 uzaqd\u0131r, olmaz. Valideynl\u0259rimin s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131m, n\u0259 deyirdil\u0259rs\u0259 edirdim. Bu, y\u0259qin ki, ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, \u00f6z bildiyimi etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim, ka\u015f ki, etm\u0259y\u0259ydim”, – Aynur kiray\u0259 tutdu\u011fu yar\u0131bo\u015f ev\u0259 bax\u0131b d\u0259rin n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131r, – “y\u0259qin n\u0259s\u0259 o\u011flana \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r ki, bir h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra daha el\u0259 k\u0259skin baxm\u0131rd\u0131lar v\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259yimiz\u0259 icaz\u0259 verdil\u0259r. \u0130ki ay sonra, tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan c\u0259mi d\u00f6rd ay sonra toyumuz oldu, h\u0259m Bak\u0131da, h\u0259m T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259”, – \u0259lav\u0259 edir.
\nToyundan dan\u0131\u015fanda k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nir. Deyir “el\u0259 \u015fey olarm\u0131 ki, bir adam\u0131n iki toyu ola, biri yax\u015f\u0131, biri pis?” Birinci toyunu “c\u0259nn\u0259t\u0259”, ikinci toyunu is\u0259 “c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 giri\u015f” adland\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

“Birinci \u015fapalaq”<\/h2>\n

Aynur h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n kiray\u0259 tutdu\u011fu ev\u0259 – T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 b\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259rin birind\u0259 ki\u00e7ik k\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb orada ya\u015fay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. \u0130lk sars\u0131nt\u0131n\u0131 da el\u0259 ev\u0259 girdiyi ilk g\u00fcn al\u0131b.
\n“T\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 ev\u0259 girmi\u015fdik, n\u0259s\u0259 x\u0131rda bir \u015feyin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00fcz a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 bir \u015fapalaq vurdu”, – bir az susur, \u0259lind\u0259ki ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam edir – “Onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 vaxt unutmaram, g\u00f6z\u00fcm k\u0259ll\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 bil m\u0259nim evl\u0259ndiyim adam\u0131 apar\u0131b yerin\u0259 ba\u015fqa adam qoyublar. Dedim y\u0259qin yol yor\u011funudur, \u0259s\u0259bidir, susdum. Sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, onun \u0259sl xasiyy\u0259ti el\u0259 bu imi\u015f, Bak\u0131dak\u0131 yalan imi\u015f”.
\nBundan sonra Aynurun \u00e7\u0259tin g\u00fcnl\u0259ri ba\u015flay\u0131r, g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcr, t\u0259hqir edilir. Aynur deyir ki, \u0259rinin valideynl\u0259ri r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getdiyi, \u00f6z ail\u0259sinin is\u0259 uzaqda oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n k\u00f6m\u0259k g\u00f6rm\u0259yib.
\n“\u018frimin n\u0259 ana-atas\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli qohumlar\u0131 var idi. Bir qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ail\u0259si, bir d\u0259 bir-iki ba\u015fqa uzaq qohumu var idi. Xarici \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259s\u0259n v\u0259 he\u00e7 kimin yoxdur, kim\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n? Qohum-qon\u015fu g\u0259lib n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259k ki? Birc\u0259 polis\u0259 ged\u0259 bil\u0259rdim, onda da ail\u0259m da\u011f\u0131lacaqd\u0131 ax\u0131. \u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259tin g\u00fcnl\u0259r idi. \u0130ndi olsa h\u0259r \u015feyi f\u0259rqli ed\u0259rdim, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 el\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n”.
\nN\u0259 Aynur, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259ri k\u0259ndd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yib, deyir, he\u00e7 i\u015f d\u0259 yox idi. K\u0259ndin dem\u0259k olar ki, ham\u0131s\u0131 qoz-f\u0131nd\u0131q y\u0131\u011f\u0131b sat\u0131r, onunla dolan\u0131rd\u0131lar. Aynurgil ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u0259rinin i\u015fl\u0259diyi vaxt y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 pullar\u0131n hesab\u0131na dolan\u0131blar, pul t\u00fck\u0259ndikd\u0259n sonra is\u0259 m\u0259cbur olub f\u0131nd\u0131q y\u0131\u011fmaq i\u015fin\u0259 ke\u00e7ibl\u0259r.
\n“Qarda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 torpa\u011f\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 idi, g\u00fcnd\u0259 onunla dava edirdi, g\u0259lib m\u0259ni d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sonralar bildim ki, qarda\u015f\u0131 onu el\u0259 u\u015faq vaxt\u0131ndan d\u00f6y\u00fcb, onda da bir n\u00f6v travma olub. Y\u0259qin m\u0259ni d\u0259 el\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f”, – Aynur bir az susur, sonra su i\u00e7ib deyir: ” g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, yen\u0259 \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 don geyindirir\u0259m”.<\/p>\n

“Az\u0259rbaycan qad\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259kdir”<\/h2>\n

Aynurun fikrinc\u0259, “\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 pis \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259ri \u00f6rt-basd\u0131r etm\u0259k etm\u0259k el\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan qad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n qan\u0131nda var”. \u015eikay\u0259tl\u0259nir ki, onu ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr t\u0259rbiy\u0259 ets\u0259ydil\u0259r, \u00f6z h\u00fcquqlar\u0131n\u0131 qoruma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ts\u0259ydil\u0259r, bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u015fey ya\u015famazd\u0131. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 is\u0259 ail\u0259sini ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilmir.
\n“Az\u0259rbaycan qad\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u0259kdir. \u00d6z evind\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259ks\u0259n, \u0259r evind\u0259 d\u0259, i\u015find\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259r yerd\u0259. \u00d6z evimd\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcm, \u0259rd\u0259 olanda da bizimkil\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259yim haqda n\u0259s\u0259 deyirdims\u0259, anam soru\u015furdu ki, neyn\u0259mis\u0259n? N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcr? Y\u0259ni, s\u0259hvin qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 olmaq ehtimal\u0131 he\u00e7 yoxdur. Onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir qayda var, s\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259hvs\u0259n”.
\nEvliliyin s\u0259kkizinci ay\u0131nda Aynur hamil\u0259 oldu\u011funu \u00f6yr\u0259nir, buna \u0259ri d\u0259 sevins\u0259 d\u0259, bu sevinc \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259kmir. Xo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259rin be\u015finci g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r yava\u015f-yava\u015f ba\u015flay\u0131r. \u0130ki ayl\u0131q hamil\u0259 olark\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcr ki, hamil\u0259liyi sonland\u0131rmaq q\u0259rar\u0131 al\u0131r. Deyir ki, \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxaraq ani q\u0259rar verib, daha sonra is\u0259 pe\u015fman olub.
\nC\u00fcml\u0259sini bitirm\u0259mi\u015f a\u011flay\u0131r, h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilmir. Ani a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi ani d\u0259 dayan\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc c\u0259ml\u0259yib dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa davam edir.
\nBir il evli qald\u0131qdan sonra \u0259rinin xasiyy\u0259tinin daha da k\u0259skinl\u0259\u015fdiyind\u0259n, d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl oldu\u011f\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evd\u0259n nec\u0259 qa\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r:
\n“M\u0259ni evd\u0259n bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa qoymurdu, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7arla ba\u011flay\u0131b gedirdi. Orda k\u0259nd evl\u0259ri d\u0259 el\u0259dir ki, yax\u0131nda adam yoxdur, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rsan he\u00e7 kim e\u015fitm\u0259z. Telefonumda da kontur saxlam\u0131rd\u0131 ki, bid\u0259n kim\u0259s\u0259 z\u0259ng edib dey\u0259r\u0259m.
\nBir g\u00fcn nec\u0259s\u0259 oldu, qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flamad\u0131, el\u0259 \u0259ynimd\u0259 n\u0259 var idis\u0259, onunla qa\u00e7d\u0131m polis\u0259. Polis m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u00fcz\u00fcm-g\u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6y i\u00e7ind\u0259, aya\u011f\u0131mda ev \u015f\u0259piti. Az\u0259rbaycana qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131 t\u0259klif etdi, dedim ax\u0131 pasportum, h\u0259r \u015feyim evd\u0259 qal\u0131b. Dedil\u0259r, ist\u0259s\u0259niz biz k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259rik, raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. N\u0259 \u0259rimi m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 verm\u0259yi, n\u0259 d\u0259 onu h\u0259bs etm\u0259yi t\u0259klif etm\u0259dil\u0259r. M\u0259n d\u0259 qorxdum ki, des\u0259m, sonra m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259zl\u0259r.
\nAz\u0259rbaycana qay\u0131danda da \u00f6z ail\u0259min evind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131m. Daha m\u0259ni d\u00f6ym\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Bilmir\u0259m, yaz\u0131qlar\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, ya qorxurdular, amma m\u0259n\u0259vi \u015fidd\u0259t davam edirdi. Yen\u0259 g\u00fcnahkar m\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131m”.<\/p>\n

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“Anam\u0131n t\u0259kidi il\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fd\u0131m”<\/h2>\n

Aynur ail\u0259sinin evin\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131qdan iki ay sonra \u0259ri Az\u0259rbaycana g\u0259lib v\u0259 ail\u0259si il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Deyir ki, g\u0259lib dizl\u0259rin\u0259 qapan\u0131b, a\u011flay\u0131b-yalvar\u0131b ki, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, bir d\u0259 bel\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 bo\u015flu\u011fa bax\u0131r, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 gah divara, gah yer\u0259 zill\u0259yir.
\n\u00d6z\u00fc ilk ba\u015flarda inanmasa da \u0259rinin s\u0259mimiliyin\u0259 onu anas\u0131 inand\u0131r\u0131b. \u0130ki g\u00fcn sonra is\u0259 birlikd\u0259 T\u00fcrkiy\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131blar. “C\u0259mi iki g\u00fcn b\u0259s el\u0259di ki, \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn o hal\u0131n\u0131 unudum” – Aynur dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u015faqq\u0131ldad\u0131r, sonra d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s alaraq susur.
\nDediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131dandan sonra \u0259ri onu x\u0259st\u0259xanal\u0131q olanad\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcb. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 vuranda “evd\u0259n qa\u00e7maq n\u0259dir, s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m” deyib. Aynura x\u0259st\u0259xanada k\u0259ll\u0259-beyin travmas\u0131, \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 \u0259zik diaqnozu qoyublar, amma polis\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t etm\u0259yib.
\n“Qorxunun bir h\u0259ddi var, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz, \u0259n \u00fcst h\u0259ddi, m\u0259n o h\u0259dd\u0259 idim, m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. N\u0259 bir s\u00f6z deyirdim, n\u0259 d\u0259 etiraz edirdim, des\u0259ydi \u00e7\u0131x \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc as, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 asard\u0131m”.<\/p>\n

Aynur deyir ki, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131dandan iki ay sonra ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 hamil\u0259 oldu\u011funu \u00f6yr\u0259nir, amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259rin\u0259 demir. Qorxur ki, bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 u\u015faqdan imtina etm\u0259li olacaq. \u018frin\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 2 ay sonra – o, xarici \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rin birin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 telefonla deyir.
\n“Bir g\u00fcn dedi ki, xarici \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 i\u015f var, orda bir \u015firk\u0259t T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259n f\u0259hl\u0259l\u0259ri apar\u0131b i\u015f verir, bir illik gedir. Bilm\u0259dim nec\u0259 edim ki, sevincim g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259sin. Ac qalacaqd\u0131m, susuz qalacaqd\u0131m, amma daha d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. Ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra da inanm\u0131rd\u0131m, iki h\u0259ft\u0259 qorxuyla ya\u015fad\u0131m ki, bird\u0259n burda olar, m\u0259ni izl\u0259y\u0259r, ya da n\u0259 bilim, qay\u0131dar.
\nSonra \u0259min oldum ki, gedib; bir az rahatla\u015fd\u0131m. U\u015faq x\u0259b\u0259rini verdim, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 pis reaksiya verdi, he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Ev\u0259 \u00e7ox az pul g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdi, dolana bilmirdim. O\u011flum anadan olandan sonra onu telefonla atas\u0131na g\u00f6st\u0259rdim, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmad\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, art\u0131q bo\u015fanma\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131d\u0131r. Evin kiray\u0259sini ver\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 sat\u0131b Az\u0259rbaycana qay\u0131td\u0131m. N\u0259 o m\u0259ni axtard\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n onu”.<\/p>\n

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“U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 qa\u00e7\u0131racam”<\/h2>\n

Az\u0259rbaycana qay\u0131dandan sonra Aynur ail\u0259sinin yan\u0131na qay\u0131tmay\u0131b. O, kiray\u0259 ev tutaraq k\u00f6rp\u0259 o\u011flu il\u0259 birg\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b. Deyir, ilk ba\u015flarda \u00e7\u0259tin idi, amma yax\u015f\u0131 qon\u015fular\u0131 var idi, – m\u00fcsahib\u0259 boyunca ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm olur:
\n“Qon\u015fuluqda bir qad\u0131n var idi, m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edirdi. N\u0259yim \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131sa tez g\u0259tirirdi. Bir ma\u011fazada i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldim, i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 o qon\u015fuya qoyurdum, maa\u015f\u0131 alanda azdan-\u00e7oxdan pul verirdim. Maa\u015f\u0131m da \u00e7ox deyildi, aydan-aya g\u00fccl\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fsas odur ki, n\u0259 \u0259rimin yan\u0131na, n\u0259 d\u0259 ata-anam\u0131n yan\u0131na qay\u0131tmamal\u0131yd\u0131m”.
\nLakin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n x\u0259rcl\u0259ri \u00e7ox oldu\u011fundan \u00e7ox ke\u00e7mir ki, Aynur ail\u0259sinin evin\u0259 qay\u0131tmal\u0131 olur. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 ona he\u00e7 n\u0259 demirl\u0259r, yax\u015f\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lan\u0131r, n\u0259v\u0259 is\u0259 \u00e7ox sevilir. Aynur bo\u015fanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t edir, amma s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7 \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259n\u00a0–\u00a0<\/b>Az\u0259rbaycan, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259 v\u0259 ki\u015finin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259 – ke\u00e7diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn proses ill\u0259rl\u0259 uzan\u0131r.
\n\u0130ki il sonra Aynur bir g\u00fcn anas\u0131n\u0131n telefonundan z\u0259ng etm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr ki, anas\u0131 onun ke\u00e7mi\u015f \u0259rin\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini g\u00f6nd\u0259rib, onun bar\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi yaz\u0131b. Anas\u0131ndan soru\u015fanda is\u0259 deyib ki, “ist\u0259yir\u0259m bar\u0131\u015fas\u0131n\u0131z, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n atas\u0131d\u0131r”.
\nBundan sonra Aynura t\u0259hdid mesajlar\u0131 g\u0259lir, ke\u00e7mi\u015f \u0259ri yaz\u0131r ki, “Bak\u0131dayam, g\u0259lib u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 qa\u00e7\u0131racam”. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn n\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r, sonda is\u0259 polis\u0259 gedir.
\n“Evimizin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 polis\u0259 getdim, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259xanada m\u0259n\u0259 veril\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259ri g\u00f6st\u0259rim ki, bu adam v\u0259h\u015fidir, m\u0259ni d\u00f6y\u00fcb, k\u0259ll\u0259-beyin travmas\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fam. Mesajlar\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rim ki, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131 qa\u00e7\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir. M\u0259ni sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki, iki add\u0131ml\u0131qday\u0131q, g\u00f6rs\u0259n siz\u0259 g\u0259lir, biz\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r edin, t\u0259dbir g\u00f6r\u0259k. Sonra \u0259rimin qohumlar\u0131na z\u0259ng edib \u00f6yr\u0259ndim ki, yalan deyirmi\u015f, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 imi\u015f. Bundan sonra sakitl\u0259\u015fdim”.
\nBir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra Aynur i\u015f tap\u0131r v\u0259 yenid\u0259n ba\u015fqa ev\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259lir.
\n\u0130ndi o, o\u011flu il\u0259 birg\u0259 h\u0259min evd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r, valideynl\u0259ri is\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u00f6lk\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb. 9 ya\u015fl\u0131 \u00f6vlad\u0131 n\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, n\u0259 d\u0259 onunla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b.
\nAynur deyir ki, indi d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259n qad\u0131nlar haqda n\u0259s\u0259 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131r, amma daha he\u00e7 kim\u0259 boyun \u0259ymir, b\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 silib yeni h\u0259yata ba\u015flamaq ist\u0259yir.
\n*Aynur – q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n ad\u0131 t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259sizlik m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z xahi\u015fi il\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdirilib.<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

H\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 toy \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini g\u00f6st\u0259rir, yad\u0131nda saxlamaq ist\u0259diyi is\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 b\u0259r-b\u0259z\u0259kli g\u0259lin donudur. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 donuna bax\u0131r, b\u0259yin oldu\u011fu yerl\u0259r is\u0259 \u015f\u0259klin qalan hiss\u0259sin\u0259 z\u0259r\u0259r vurmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ehtiyatla k\u0259silib. “El\u0259 bilirdim evl\u0259n\u0259n kimi b\u00fct\u00fcn probleml\u0259r bit\u0259c\u0259k. Hardan bil\u0259ydim ki, ata evind\u0259ki d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r \u0259r evind\u0259kinin yan\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 olacaq?” – g\u0259nc qad\u0131n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr. \u0130nsan hekay\u0259l\u0259ri silsil\u0259sind\u0259n bu yaz\u0131m\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 28 ya\u015fl\u0131 Aynurdur. O, m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n kimi ail\u0259 qurub. Deyir ki, evd\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn dava-dala\u015f oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fib ki, evl\u0259nm\u0259k “yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu ola bil\u0259r”. Bir yax\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n tan\u0131\u015f etdiyi o\u011flanla…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":77889,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"gutentor_comment":0,"rttpg_featured_image_url":{"full":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1.jpg",577,341,false],"landscape":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1.jpg",577,341,false],"portraits":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1.jpg",577,341,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1-150x150.jpg",150,150,true],"medium":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1-300x177.jpg",300,177,true],"large":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1.jpg",577,341,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1.jpg",577,341,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1.jpg",577,341,false],"post-thumbnail":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1-240x172.jpg",240,172,true],"advps-thumb-one":["https:\/\/arantv.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/1568049365_screenshot_1.jpg",577,341,false]},"rttpg_author":{"display_name":"V\u00fcsal Rafiqo\u011flu","author_link":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/?author=2"},"rttpg_comment":0,"rttpg_category":"C\u0259miyy\u0259t<\/a>","rttpg_excerpt":"H\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 toy \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini g\u00f6st\u0259rir, yad\u0131nda saxlamaq ist\u0259diyi is\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 b\u0259r-b\u0259z\u0259kli g\u0259lin donudur. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 donuna bax\u0131r, b\u0259yin oldu\u011fu yerl\u0259r is\u0259 \u015f\u0259klin qalan hiss\u0259sin\u0259 z\u0259r\u0259r vurmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ehtiyatla k\u0259silib. “El\u0259 bilirdim evl\u0259n\u0259n kimi b\u00fct\u00fcn probleml\u0259r bit\u0259c\u0259k. Hardan bil\u0259ydim ki, ata evind\u0259ki d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r \u0259r evind\u0259kinin yan\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 olacaq?” – g\u0259nc qad\u0131n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr. \u0130nsan…","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/77888"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=77888"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/77888\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/77889"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=77888"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=77888"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/arantv.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=77888"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}